THE HEART

The heart, it is a very fragile thing. The feelings we have because of it we cannot control. The feeling of when we are in love and that icky feeling when we have had our heart broken.

Some people are scared to let their heart out and for that reason, they never find love. Other people give their heart to anyone and for that reason they get hurt repeatedly.

So is there a happy medium? There must be because look at all the happy couples in love. In today's world it seems as if there are more couples fighting than in love, but look around. Love is everywhere; we just have to find it.

So what do you do when you love a person and they don't love you back? This happened with me.

My friend Chad and I became great friends my senior year in high school. I don't really know how this came about because we had different cliques of friends and we had no classes together. We had a few mutual friends and we just began talking. I would always call him on the phone to talk. He would always entertain my conversations but he never called me.

At first this didn't bother me. I really liked Chad so any chance I got to talk to him it was a good thing and all of my friends heardabout it the next day. It began to bother me that Chad never really called me. He was friendly in school and he was always nice on the phone, but he never took the first step.

I began to doubt our friendship. Things didn't seem right after a while and I never felt as if I could talk to him anymore. I really liked him. I had feelings for him I never felt before. However, he had just broken it off with his girl friend and he wasn't looking for a relationship.

By the time prom rolled around, I was dying to go with Chad. I had my friends trying to figure out who he would ask, and it turns out that it wasn't me. I was heartbroken.

I still found the perfect dress and I wanted to do everything to make him jealous. I went and had fun, but a piece of my heart ached because I was not with him. After that we talked some, but I missed our old conversations. He was playing baseball as well as being busy with senior "stuff".

I never did tell Chad how I felt. I was scared of rejection and of heartbreak.

I am now 35 years old and happily married. I see Chad around sometimes with his wife and two kids, and my heart still jumps a little. I still get a silly grin on my face thinking of everything I did to get his attention. I am sure by now he knows how I felt for him because my friends took it upon themselves to tell him.

I do not regret my marriage now at all. The one thing I do regret is not telling Chad how I felt for him. The saying is true "To the world you may only be one, but to one you may be the world." I hate to think that everyday there are people in my situation. They love, admire and respect a person so much but they are unable to tell them for whatever reason.

Therefore, for love's sake and your heart's sake, don't make the same mistake I did. Take you life into your own hands and tell that person. Trust me, your heart will thank you later.