At the age of 43 I became a mother. This alone is not very unusual, as many women these days consciously choose to have children at a later stage in life. What made it special in my case was that a year before my child's was born, I was single.
My son's father and I had decided to break up. We loved each other truly from the heart, but our age difference, he is 15 years younger than I am, and the differences in culture, religion and our upbringing seemed too much, and so our convictions won the battle! I felt devastated and couldn't find any reason to continue in life.
I shared my frustration with God in my prayers and begged Him for help. During these prayers I developed the habit of intuitive writing. This is writing without consciously thinking or in other words, I automatically wrote down the words that came up.
In these letters I was told that my lover and I would reunite and I would get pregnant with our son. 42 days later, I received a phone call from my man who asked me to come 'home' and make a child with him. I went and became pregnant. Isn't God's power amazing?
I also want to tell you about my personal healing because I feel sure that it will help others to trust the same Infinite Healing Presence, lodged in the subconscious depths of us all.
In 2002, I was diagnosed with a dangerous virus. This virus called C.M.V., attacked my body in many ways. It infected my brain, paralyzed my arms and infected my liver and kidney. My doctor told me I had only 5 percent chance to survive this ordeal. No medicine existed to cure this virus and I was sent home.
After this experience, and despite all worries around me, I realized that the 'thought' of dying had never entered my mind. I could see myself in the 'future' being healthy and happy, and deep down I 'knew' this to be true!
During the time of my recovery, which took me around two years, I went to see a doctor of homeopathy who subscribed all kinds of 'natural' drops to support and clean my liver and kidney.
Homeopathy is the art and science of healing by safe, gentle, and natural methods; the Homeopathic remedies are derived from raw, natural resources generally from the vegetable and animal kingdoms as well as from minerals. Although some remedies are used in less diluted form, most remedies in general use are highly diluted yet potentized. They are believed to have some, yet unidentified, physical energy that helps to stimulate the body's own healing power.
I realized that my illness came from the way I was thinking about myself and life, and that I needed to change my outlook on things. From this time on, my research started. I wanted to know the opinion from scientists and doctors about 'self healing' and God; about prayer and about the effect thoughts have on one's life. I began reading philosophical /spiritual and scientific books and articles.
After a year of sleep, around May in 2003, I felt strong enough to participate in a three year education in 'Rebalancing' where I was taught that all daily life impressions are stored in the physical body, whether good or bad. As in my case, the 'bad' impressions literally 'banged' on my door.
The thought behind Rebalancing is that all wisdom available lies in one's body and the body is one's home. In order to be able to 'hear' this wisdom, one needs a clean body and mind. It was obvious for me that the contact between my body and my mind needed to be restored, in order to find the root that caused my physical pain and disease.
I learned to meditate, which helped quiet my mind and with massage, yoga and breathing exercises I slowly accepted and entered my home (body). Another very important thing I learned was to deal with and let go of my emotions.
Due to my illness, I found my way back to the voice in my heart, I call 'God'. I integrated praying in my daily routine, which reminded me of the daily conversations I used to have with 'Him' as a child. But as I grew older, I simply 'forgot' about my dearest friend and my fears grew.
More about My Miraculous Healing:
Part 2: The Creative Power of Your Subconscious
Part 3: My Talent Was Revealed In A Dream
Part 4: Scientific Discoveries
Copyright © 2010 Marijke Verkerk
About the author: Marijke Verkerk is a Mother & Wife, Master of Metaphysical science Msc, Certified Rebalancer, Artist, and a National speaker in the Netherlands/Europe.
See Marijke's art at: http://www.blikopkunst.nl/marijkeverkerk
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