Remembering My Mom
This Saturday we will welcome the summer solstice. Half of this year will already be behind us! This Sunday is exactly one year since my mom passed away.
So much has transpired since she took her last breath. I can remember her last few hours like it was yesterday. As I think back on all the words, emotions, challenges endured over the past 12 months, I sit and realize how much I've grown as a person.
I find myself having silent conversations with my mom about all the happenings in my world - good, bad or indifferent. I wake up with clarity and find answers (or at least suggestions) to my questions and life's uncertainties.
I can hear her voice from time to time in my head, reassuring me that "things will work out". If I could physically see her one more time, in the here and now, I wonder what we would talk and laugh about?
They say that time heals all wounds, but I truly believe that our wounds help us to be better human beings. The pain never truly leaves, but the healing begins. It all depends on what we choose to focus on.
Some regret words never shared with loved ones, but I'm so grateful that with my parents this has not been the case. I choose to focus on being the type of person my parents raised me to be. At the end of every day, I wonder if I've made them proud?
I remember who they were and how they lived their lives. How they both lived a life being in service to others. My Mom's favorite word was "HOPE". She wanted us to love one another and be good to each other, always.
She was an amazing woman.
As I've said many times she and I would drive each other completely nuts. She was more of a positive thinker on behalf of others than for herself. She loved a juicy, deep conversation as long as it might cause some controversy! She loved to laugh, was so very talented; loved to draw, knit and quilt.
She was great with little kids and always wanted others to feel loved and joyous. I remember a time in her ophthalmologist's office when she said how rewarding he must feel being able to live his purpose. He responded to her by saying, "Jacqui, you live your purpose, I know exactly when you enter my waiting room because people begin to chat and laugh and smile. Jacqui, you make people feel good!"
She was so taken aback by that. If you knew my mom -- she talked to everyone.
(Lol... lol... lol...)
She felt that you never knew who just might not have anyone in their lives and just really needed a friendly "Hello!" (...used to drive my dad crazy!) But at the end of the day, and the end of his life, he thanked her for just being her, which was the greatest thing he could have done for her.
So as we welcome the summer solstice I once again bid you fare thee well, Jacqui Goldman. As days turn into night, and seasons move from one to another, I honor you and all you've taught me as well as all you still continue to teach me.
Thank you for believing in me, for knowing who I was, and always for your truth and love.
Enjoy life today. Let go of all anger and hurt and "should-haves..."
Embrace the sunshine, live in love, and be true to yourself first. You were taught right from wrong, so take full responsibility for what you create in your own space. Learn your lessons and continue to grow and move forward to become better.
At the end of the day, the only person you really need to answer to is the person in the mirror.
Here's to living your big life NOW!
Who's with me?
Until next time,
Growing forward in Love and Peace...
Copyright © 2014 Cynthia Farina, HHCP
Cynthia Farina is a life coach, energy healer and intuitive teacher. She uses her innate talents, as well as a variety of divination tools in order to coach her clients to stand in a place of strength and truth on their own journey of self-realization.
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