Mom, Could You?
A few years ago, I was sitting in my backyard. I sat there
contemplating all that was happening in my life with overwhelming
feelings of despair.
I had married a man who was abusive and somehow
managed to hide it from everyone else, including the kids. After hours
and hours of prayer, I remained hopeless in knowing what to do. As I
sat there in my thoughts, my eldest son, who was about 14, came up and
sat down beside me. Although I was distracted, I could tell that he
was in deep thought about something.
We sat there in silence a few
minutes and then he spoke. "Mama, could you withstand the things that
Job did?" I answered quickly saying, "Adam, I would have a hard time
losing my children."
He did not answer, as we sat there again in
silence. A few moments later, he said, "Mama, could you withstand the
things that Job did?" This time I hesitated and reflected upon his
question a little more, realizing that he needed an answer. I thought
about it a moment more and then said, "Well Adam, as I said, I would
have a hard time losing my children."
He nodded and we continued to
sit there, with my mind returning to what I had been thinking before he
sat down. After a few more minutes of silence, Adam said, "Mama...
could you withstand the things that Job did?" This time his question
hit me like a bucket of cold water.
I realized that either I could or
I couldn't. I looked at my son and said, "Yes, Adam I believe I
could." I always wondered why Jesus asked Peter three times if he
loved him. Now I know.
Adam is now attending college, studying to
become a minister. But his ministry began years ago, as he sat there
beside me asking, "Mama, could you withstand the things that Job did?"
--- Barbara Barker --- Texas